Lost :(

I dont actually know where i stand in life anymore

I cant decide 

Where I want to live

What job i want

Or even who i want in my life

Im feeling lost and left out and just need a cuddle and a clear head

:(

People that interfere really boil my blood! 

Mixed Signals & not knowing where you stand with a person!

Basically i just need a big rant because im sick to death of being treated differently all because of a change in situation

Its funny how much one persons influence can change another's attitude and the way they are with people

I dont know if i should feel angry or upset scream shout or run or just smile and get over it

Ive literally gave myself a migrain and made myself ill because im losing one of the people i care most about all because they cant make their own mind up without the influence of others

All In A Year

The Past Year

So in a quick summary of the past year

- I worked at a gym (met some lovely people) 

- Worked at festivals and awesome cool other things - VFest, Stone Roses, Mens Health - Survival of the fittest

- My Gorgeous friend Suzanne moved to Australia & so did my amazing Auntie Claire! :(

- Saw Lee Evans live

- Finally got over the guy i wrote alot of blogs about - Cringe!

- Had 18" Microbond hair extensions

- Dyed my hair pink

- Dyed my hair blonde

- Had a girlfriend (yes shock i know)

- Had my heartbroken again

- I worked for credit expert - scary to think what actually happens on your credit report and what effects you!

- I got new tattoos - 12 in total

- Gained Friends

- Lost Friends

- Turned 21!!!!!

- New Piercings - 10 in total now

- I started selling Juice Plus

- Failed my Driving Test AGAIN!

- Went to Ibiza 

     - Jetskis

     - Parasailing

     - AMAZING EXPERIENCE

What Happen's in Ibiza Stays in Ibiza

- Got in touch with an old friend! Love you Bodger!! 

- Got matching Tattoo's

- Gained a Niece Tayla

- Gained a Nephew Harris (my fault he was created haha)

- Had my tonsils taken out finally

- Had a wisdom tooth removed - & still recovering

- Lost Weight

- Put on Weight

- Completed the Manchester 10k run for The Christie Charity

- Finally got a DSLR Canon 650D

- Got a job at a Photography Studio

- Photographed a nude Charity Calendar 

- Got a Husky Puppy

- Saved a bride from ruining her wedding dress

- Survived a full weekend of no sleeping and drinking

(Ok these are getting silly)

Things im looking forward to 

- Wait to see what good things Karma will bring

- See my brother start his first day of school

- Italy in September

- My own place

- New Career

- Finally pass my driving test 

- Get my debts cleared

- Thailand 

- Finish off & Start more Tattoo's

I think i have pretty much covered everything! Hmmm may have to edit in a while haha

Hope i havent bored you!

Thanks for reading

x

I Got Sexy! & Blonde ;)

Hello Again

So i thought id start blogging again!

I actually miss it but I've had no time whatsoever to do so! 

I dont even know if anyone reads it or not but I'm guessing its therapeutic and gives me something to do! 

Like now for example I'm on a 2 hour train journey to Carlisle and I've just given up my reserved seat to an elderly, disabled woman! Not long ago a man helped me carry my case to the platform so I'm guessing Karma works! Wonder what she has in store for me!

Looking at previous blogs you will tell i just ramble a load of random shit! Some blogs look all pretty with pictures and coding but because i broke my laptop the next few will just be plain and boring!

But happy reading and if you are reading thankyou for listening to me waffle! No doubt i'l have another one posted as only half an hour of my journey has passed

:) xxx